The dirty truth..

I dunno why but god gave me a pair of good instincts or 6 sense since the day I was born. I can predict ANYTHING and it actually goes the way I predicted. I always feel that she's a threat during the relationship but everyone told me not to worry.. but it still ended up the way I predicted.

Am I too smart or purely lucky? WHATEVER! It has been 3 weeks of breakup already.. enuff of emo-ing over someone. It felt like needles piercing through ur heart when the truth is out. BUT thank god that I have someone reminding me over and over again that I shouldnt be bothered by it. Someone who is currently at a hot n humid country . He never fails to ring me up in the afternoon n night to cheer me up even though the phone bill is exp. I'm touched! REALLY!

It somehow reminded me on how *he* and I actually bought a prepaid card to sms each other cause of the exp. call charges. I just didnt mind topping and topping up the card. Then it was the Thailand trip which you kept telling me how much u wont leave me. AND NOW.. its hard to even keep u as friends.

I'm all alone at home again.. and thats when emotional takes over me. I want to head out.. but the weather isn't helping. EVERYONE is at work or sch.. except me! *kill me PLEASE*


Oh.. before I leave..

I LOVE U LISA.. lots lots!

RANDOM

I had to meet 3 different people on FRIDAY.. and it was helluva tiring yet fun. The funny thing about me is that when I'm single, I will dress at my best and try to be different from the normal me and so I WORE HEELS. Totally hack care abt the blisters and pains.. JUST WHACK.




The camera was working just the way I wanted that day.. Woo hoo! OK.. shall stop being a narcissistt. Ok.. enuff of cam whoring session.





We went for seafood feast on friday night cause it was Eluether's first bk out day from Tekong. It was the guy's treat! Thank u SO MUCH! The strange thing abt being single is that.. you just look picture perfect with all the guys.
It was me and KeeGay..
Me and Kervin..
ME.. and ZHIWEI..













And then Me and Gabby.
















Candid shot by Gabby. SO unglam of me snatching food like that. BUT IT's WORTH IT. The food is like.. so delicious can!!

Ok! So there wont be much mad outing trips anymore from today onwards. School is starting. TIME To start saving b4 my bank acct screams for help. I'm seriously having a severe DAMAGE in my acct now and there's like so many things to get. CLOTHES.. NOTES... FACIAL PRODUCTS! GOSH! I need a sugar daddy to survive... FIND ME ONE!!

A tiring life

Its the last week of my sch holidays.. So how did I spend my really last week? Gee hee... NO ONE CAN EXPECT IT.. even myself!

It was DRUNK DRUNK monday with the gang at Crystalbelle. Its like the first time getting drunk in a KARAOKA Lounge lar. But well... having the opportunity to sing my lungs out and drown my sorrows with my really horrible voice.. does make me feel HAPPIER. Stayover at Gabby's place cause my parents will really freaked out with their daughter behaviour and probably ground me for going out late.

Tuesday was spent at Gabby's place THE WHOLE DAMN DAY. I feel as if Poh huat Rd became my second home. Its a place to have fun, CRY and entertainment.

Wed was like.. HOME ALONE at home in the whole afternoon until Kervin called to have dinner. We had our dinner at AMK area without kervin cause he went to Lovey Dovey with his baby. Zouk in the night with Gabby and his army frens. Well.. I wasn't really enjoying myself but still.. there's fun lar.. esp. all the MAMBO dances and stuff.

Thursday was like HOME ALONE again until.. I couldnt take the boredom that I called Kervin up to ask if there's any plan. Met up with Him to get my stuff back. I must admit that the route to his place and the landmarks ard him gave me some SENTIMENTAL attack. I wont be heading up tat stairs anymore and probably.. that will be my last time heading to that area. FUCK IT... stop the emo temptation. Met up with ZW and then we played wii with the rest till soccer starts. HOME at 5 plus with Chompang Nazi Lemak for breakfast.

And its FRIDAY today. I guess it will be home alone today. URGHZ... THE WHOLE DAY!!!!!

Sigh! I think its time to tone down a little in my life already. It has too many roller coaster rides. I regretted doing alot of things after the breakup.. and its silly that after all the wrong things you have done.. I WILL SUFFER, FRIENDS GET WORRIED but.. you just felt nonchalent about it. Friends told me that I'm too desperate for love now and I totally agree and seriously.. no good relationship will work out right now for a rebounce.. and so.. I think.. I will just be every guy's bestest GIRL FRIEND now. No string attached. Good guys are hard to get nowadays.. so I shall just CAMP at one area and drool over the good looking ones and attack on the RARE ones. Tee hee!

Ok lar.. gtg now already! THE WEATHER IS LIKE FREAKING NEH NEH HOT... GOSH!!

Greatest stayover

It started with Karaoka session with gab, Kervin and rest. Dun really wanna comment much about anything but all I know was I ended up at Gabby's place cause I was too tipsy to remember WHAT I SAID and I guess my mum would probably freak out so.. GABBY's place!!

I always laugh at Gab whenever he claims that he sleeps 10 hrs a day. HOW COULD THAT EVER BE right? Hahaha.. and I finally know why. His bed is like so comfortable lar.. and his bolster is like so hugable that I'm starting to miss it really badly now. His air con is really cold but his blanket made it so comfy to sleep.. AND SERIOUSLY... the fact that Gab had to sleep on the exercise mat with 3 shorts and 2 tops just make me LOVE THE BED EVEN MORE!!

We woke up.. and headed out for breakfast.. and then back to lalaland while kervin plays the SUPER NOISY game beside us. I felt really way way better after the ton-ning session. The emo talks and tickling session just make me laugh and smile as if there's no tomorrow... and I must really congratulate myself to really get over the EMO thingy feeling already. I'm a happy girl!

I was even happier when KUEY CHAP greeted me during dinner. Back to Gabby's place and then finally we all went home at 1 plus!! Its 24 hrs AT GABBY's place... I'm really so happy to have them ard during my super emo days and I really must say.. I'm super fine now!!

WELL.. a special note to you:
I didnt want to spread any BAD comments about anything. You dun have to CALL me in the morning to ask me questions that doesnt REGARD me but yet PISSES ME! Can you seriously grow up and THINK hard if this had to be you instead? Listening to all ur 'CAN U FORGIVE' questions in the morning seriously makes me detest you even more. LOOK.. I'm not even gonna victimized myself for you. If I have known you're such a person.. I WOULDNT even be so stupid to listen to ur nonsense again. I really regretted having this relationship started. Blame it on my stupidity but but but... I'm not gonna be stupid ANYMORE.. and let u affect my life.. and my circles of wonderful frens. I'm not gonna hate you but I just dun feel like seeing u and PLEASE.. I DUN HATE ANYONE.. stop making me sound so bloody evil. Enuff is enuff.. lets just put a full stop to it!

OK! I'm tired!!
Some really HAPPY photos!!
I'm finally TALL!! HAHAHHAA!
A really happy me.. Yippie!!

Clubbing.. Clubbing...
CLUBBING AT DBL 0!!!

Why are things like THAT..

I woke up.. feeling all refreshed and ready for a perfect day ahead and thats when a msg came and made me all PISSED! WHY?? I tried to be all cool with it and soon my temper rises and I flare up like a volcano.

I seriously dunno what the hell is this.. What you actually want me to do? If you want me to be the evil person.. THEN I think u seriously did it lor. Ah..

I felt so bad after saying those words.. then I fell asleep for just 15 mins and then woke up due to a dream.

A dream that was so nice. I saw u in the dream.. you were at my place hugging me.. telling me you were all along kidding me.. and that you love me most. I told myself in the dream that this wont be a dream.. and kept kicking myself to be woken up.. to proof I'm really not dreaming and then... lalala.. I was really dreaming!!

So thats when.. I woke up.. telling myself.. I've to be firm this time!!

Soccer @ the Cage

GAB.. find the title familier? HAHAHHAa.. I'm currently at Gab's place and since I'm so lazy to do anything now.. I think I just blog at his place.

I thought I was suppose to be slacking my whole day home miserably but I ended up.. with kervin and JJ for dinner at the prawn fishing area. Mummy came with Jie jie after that and we had a short cutesy chat over dinner.

Went along with them to watch how the guys plays soccer at the CAGE. I felt a little emotional initially but after a conversation on the phone.. I felt like HEY... I'm getting on pretty fine with everything actually. I dun feel anything bad like really suddenly.. and was laughing my ass off at Kervin and Gabby's jokes. Well.. I'm really seriously forgetting about everything I should remember.

They are all playing MJ now.. and as for me.. I guess I should stop MAHJONG soon before my bank acct cries for help. Waiting for Italy vs spain. *slaps* 1 more hr to go!!

Oh.. I really wanna thank Gab and JJ like seriously!! U guys are really really very very very and I MEAN VERY... nice to me when I was super super super DOWN. It was because of all my frens that made me laugh to the fullest. I took the car out yesterday even though I know I wasnt in the state to drive. REason so was because I felt like speeding a little and enjoy the loud music and wind blowing from the sun roof and windows. Well..however, I nearly bang my dad's car a couple of times too and I must say that all these fright did indeed make me forget abt him completely for that moment. But it was fun.. lar.. and I bet JJ and Gab loves the crusing function too right? Haha.. And I felt so pai seh that they have to send me home still even though I'm driving cause.. I CANNOT PARK lar!! So tweet right? HAhaha!

Ok.. there's tuition and KTV after that with the lovelies.. *yawn* gonna go have some sleep first.

A new life

I promised myself and everyone that I will revert back to normal by 23/06/08 00 00hrs. It was suppose to be our 11 mths today but instead of celebrating, I'm actually sorting out my emotions.

Instead of knowing what is happening and why its happening.. I will only asked myself How I'm coping! I'm starting to improve on my diet and sleep already.. SEE.. I even stayed home today!!

Dbl 0 was hell last week.. Shan't elaborate much cause its so not worth remembering what's happening on that day. Its back to work and fun tomorrow and school starts 1 week after tomorrow. Totally cant wait for this very day cause I will be seeing new mates(cause I repeated)!! Its back to Law n Management acct!! Grr!! Gonna see how well I scored this time when I'm single! Teehee!

Gtg now! Cherrio!!

Thank You messages.

After so many days of outings and fun.. I finally thought it through. No use crying over someone who doesnt appreciate anything. And if he dares to say hurting words and feels not commited after 10 mths of pain.. then thats just show that he's not responsible and I cant live with a guy who is like that. A leopard will never change its spot so.. forget it! I'm trying hard to put everything that belongs to him away. I dun even intend to meet him to get my stuff back.. decided to forgo my stuff.

I had a great chat with daddy last night when I got home. I felt that I have disappoint him as a daughter. He finally told me the words that struck me hard.. that how naughty I m. We ended the whole thing by having a big daddy baby hug and I slept really soundly that night. Daddy words always works when it comes to such situation.




Apart from all these drama mama stuff.. I'm still on the verge of HAPPINESS. Met Van van up for some drinking session with her bf and her bf Type R cousin. Nothing much.. just that I felt that drinking and smoking at the same time makes u HIGHER. Bought a pack to try if it will help me drown my sorrows but well.. it did make me feel sleepy in the end for 5 hrs.


AND then I woke up, feeling fearful that I'm all alone! Thank god I have friends like Gabby and rest.. cause there's GYM SESSION to drown my sorrows again. It was a short one cause I was too tired and Gab was too hungry. We went to hougang mall after that to get the ingredients ready for COOKING! We are totally like having our fun.. with 3 girls doing the cooking and GABBY ka-jiaoing us. Kervin join us and we all slack at gabby's place for the whole day till night. I finally finished my meal and have ample sleep at gabby's place. LIKE FINALLY. Hurray!!!!
The things we need for our cooking.
See the mess we created!!...But then.. Gab parents were still all so cool with us messing their kitchen...
And the best part was.. I was rewarded by BOY BOY a ferrario Rocher for my hard work!! OK.. delicious meal!!
But I realise.. I just did the washing and chopping!! Hm... but well.. much appreciated!! And check this out.. its Tooo Tooo Train and Vroom Vroom cars that we are eating.

It was movie after that with keegay, JJ, Mich, Kailiang and his gf, kervin, Jia hui and gab. The movie was really hilarious but I guess i wasn't in the mood and that kinda make me dun quite understand the show but still I did have a great laugh.

Really wanna thank all the pple who are like retriving me up from where I've drop. No wonder I dun tear anymore after Wed! Really love my darling lisa so much for taking half day off. I love Gabby for encouraging me to move on. I love michelle for making me feel that I'm not alone. I love Jun Jie for supporting me. I love my family members to the Xcore because they made me feel that their love is the most genuine of all.

I'm gonna revamp myself today. NEW HAIR COLOUR!!!!!

I was jerked.

You know how funny it is that when after a breakup, u always THANK the partner for everything and all the love and stuff? I'm so not going to do it for this particular one. I was JERKED by the same guy over AGAIN. I know some might think I shouldn't do it over here but I totally feel so dirty and stupid after knowing so much. I've no intention of tarnishing his reputation but I'm just so STUPID.

This blog was started for him and everyone knows about that. All the posts are all for him.. and mostly are so loving that I still smile and tear upon reading it again. I wont delete all these post but I will have a new blog sometime soon or maybe a new layout. I always thought his love was genuine even till the day he tells me he needs a breakup but I was so wrong. What do u mean by you love me for at least 10 mths? Thats like DEJAVU lar.. he told me the same thing in the first breakup too. I looked back at the photos we do after the 10 mths.. and I laugh at myself.. at my STUPID RETARDED HAPPY face in all the photos. So whats with the shopping for clothes, shopping for PSP, sentosa trip and etc etc for? BREAKUP mth?

I didn't feel sad but just disappointed with myself. A leopard can never change its spot.. and why didnt I go for that advice. I disappointed with my mum for giving birth to a stupid girl.. who is always being cheated by guys. She was so worried for me that she kept telling me that I'm too good for him and she believes that the next guy that comes by will be an understanding and lovely guy. I finally understand why alcohol can solve every misery night.. cause I did that last night and finally I slept.. but for a nicely 5 hrs only.

I seriously never met someone lidat b4. Most of my friends might be abit mischievious but not to the extend of this. At least they have have got the sympathy side and knows how to use words in the correct manner. I might look ok to u but how fine u want me to be after hitting me hard with those words? 10 mths seems nothing to u at all? LOOK.. its 10 freaking mths in ur ARMY LIFE ok? I see u through the BMTC stage till a sgt rank.. and though at times I feel angry with the schedule but still.. I supported u! Dun mind running the extra mile to top up ur PREPAID card to hear and see ur sms and phonecalls. Dun mind going to JB to buy games for u without u coming along with me. Dun mind hearing my parents nag when I didnt attend ANY of their get together session. Dun mind having no sleep to meet u up early in the morning to do stuff together. Dun mind heading to the clinic when I had only 5 hrs of sleep. Dun mind making all the trips down even though I wasnt feeling too well. I feel like I have done 3 yrs of things even though its 10 mths short and yet.. u can ignore all these and tell me u dun even wanna think about it and then act like a clown in front of me by not staring right into my eye and talk like a man. You said so many evil things and yet you think u said nothing that HURTS me?

AHHH..... all these are killing me. How can a young man learn to be so cruel. KNNCCB seriously.

I'm a virgo and I totally pray really hard that I'm NOT GOING TO BE A STUPID GIRL AGAIN. I wanna stand upright and save more money and spend on MYSELF and not on others.

I'm sure everyone who predicted that this would happen will probably have their toes laughing and do that OBI OBI GOOD signature dance now. Well.. u guys did the right thing I suppose.. I should be laughed at by my horrendous stupidity acts!!

Dumb sleepless night

I had like only 3 hrs of sleep. Its not that I want to have sleepless night but seriously.. I dunno why I just wake up out of a sudden feeling fearful. I'm feeling slightly better right now after so much yesterday.

I just couldnt stay home and look at all the things he once given me. LOOK.. I'm not that PRO like him when it comes to forgetting the memories. I can never forget and revert back to normal self after a night. I cried when I was out with the lovelies and that was because I just hate the whole thing. BUT.. the lovelies just continued making me laugh to the fullest with gab's jokes and Syl n lisa MOVIE and the night mahjong session which I lost. Everyone asked me to moved on and forget about him but I felt like telling them everytime that its hard to do it but I know everyone will hit me with a wooden stick to tell me that I'm dumb.

I just dun understand some things over this breakup. Why when a guy wants a girl so badly.. he was allowed to use ALL THE WORDS and actions he wants but when a girl wants a guy so badly.. not even a single word can manipulate anything but when a guy wants to leave a girl, just 1 WORD can work in the breakup but vice versa for a women. Some told me that he had it all planned since mths ago then.. why.. WHY can't my actions moved u at all? Imagine.. we were still cuddling and hitting each other just less than 24 hrs ago and then when u're ALONe.. u just emo.. for that single while and CONFIRMED what u wanted without even thinking about EVERYTHING including how I felt.

There might be a possibility that I'm not the one but isnt it so ironic when u always tell me how happy you were when we are doing all the funny things just days ago b4 the breakup. The ford focus car rides, Kungfu panda movie, you falling sick and the FOOTBALL mania!!

I actually bought a card for him yesterday but I left it at the coffee house. I guess its just fated.

He did it once again

I didnt even had a wink at all last night. WHAT a drama night I had and it cause me.. to revert back to SINGLE. I find it rather a joke cause seriously.. I dun know whats up in a GUY's mentality. I have tried my best to sustain this relationship. Things I never dare to try b4.. I TRIED in this relationship and hoping that my baby will loves me more and will not have wierd thinkings.. BUT then I failed.

NOPE.. we did not have a major quarrel even a MINOR. It just happens like a snap! I dunno to hate or love him. I was so upset that i had to wake my sis up and cry cause I never thought this would happen to me today. Everyone even myself thought its alright for the both of us but.. I guess we are all wrong cause he did it again.

I'm not gonna fall into this hole ever again. I'm putting in alot of effort mending the hole we used to dig and NOW.. its repeating itself again. WHY? Why must I have such endings when I'm like the bestest gf u have? I'm always proud of u and WHY.. why must u prove to me that u're not worth to be proud. Why is it that after what has happen.. u can sleep like a dead log? Am I really that bad?

I dunno what to do right now? I seriously feel like shooting myself right in my head for answers. What's wrong with guys nowadays. I'm starting to lost the trust in love again.

Updates with PHOTOS

So here are the photos. Firstly.. its lionel koh with his Botak head. Lol.. one more bodak added to the bodak list. Hehe.. everyone looks alike now. Hope u are having a wonderful lovely time in YANKEE now. :)

And these are the food we had together with JJ on friday. The Stingray is nice yet too spicy. The fishball stall are WELL-KNOWN for its balls.. haha.. and we had that yummilicious claypot rice. Having Baby and JJ ard for dinner just reminds me of the BKK trip we went the other time. Sigh...!! Jj was like our son for that night.

OK!! I'm so gonna blog abt this photo man. THANKS to MR GABRIEL EE BING DE that my dearest baby is like so STUCK and GLUED to this game. PURSUIT FORCE!! Its all abt police chasing after thief or something lidat. Grr... baby is like so HAPPY with the game that he plays it in the CAR, on the dining table, while walking and during his shitting process. AND YES.. I was neglected most of the time... its great if I'm playing mj but when I'm not.. it just suck! Hahhaa... I'm so gonna kick gabby's ass for this great recommendation. Baby was telling me that he's so gonna thank gab for that wonderful recommendation and I WAS like.. SO IT was HIS IDEA LAR... grrr...(*punch the wall)!

Its monday and I'm like freaking bored!! Yawn... viwawa!!!

Happy.WeekEnD

I'm seriously having the most ultimate weekend I ever had. Well well.. looks like every weekend seems lovely except those without baby with me. WHATEVER.. So.. baby book out on Thursday evening. I rush like mad since I had to head to sch on thursday for the enrolment thingy.

I was seriously FAMISHED when I met baby. TO make things worst we made 2 trips to and fro AMK central cause we forgotten to bring the non camera phone for Lionel Koh who is serving the nation on FRIDAY. We went to J8 to do last minute shopping for LIONEL KOH.. and FINALLY.. after so long.. I can have my DINNER! It was settled at TPY lor 8. The food was fine but the company we had was helluva fun.

Drinking is a must have for the boy here. We made a trip to boat Quey but realise it was WILD HOGS that lionel koh wants to go. Well well.. WILD HOGS.. was seriously an EYE OPENER for me. Its a Phillipine kinda pub.. but well.. NOT REALLY THAT CLEAN. I was the only DECENT girl over there I suppose. Though baby felt a little uneasy with my presence but seriously.. I'm ALRIGHT! It was rather hilarious to see how hum sup man can get and hwo DARING and poor thing some of the ladies there were. There was this ang mo that just grope the ladies breast under her blouse and he didnt even just stop there.. he continue himself by putting his hands under her skirt. I was freaking FREAKED OUT! Drank quite abit over there and then accompanied Jun Jie for some karaoka over to the other side of the alley. Left the guys for their own drinking session while I had fun with jj with songs and Tiger. Thank god that the guys I know wasnt hum sup like that ang mo. ITS really ULTIMATE.

We got home at 4 plus and I woke up at 6 to find myself feeling abit uneasy. I guess its the mixture of alcohol. My stomach felt bloated and I was having a headache. I spent my night playing diner dash on the PSP. Slept for only 3 hrs for the whole night I guess. Despite being so tired, we still made our trip down to army market to get baby's stuff done and then off to Suntec for IT show. I was really so tired that I slept ASAP after boarding the bus. Dinner was settled with Jun Jie and baby at TPY again.. but this time was at another side of TPY. Nice nice. Met up with Kervin and Gab for mahjong and we had loadza fun. Laugh until I roll on the floor and kept banging my fist on the floor. Everyone had their fun I guess.

Went over to Andre place for soccer. I was really too tired that I K.Oed after a few mins. 4-1 was the score for netherlands and france. It was really one helluva fun night. Gtg rest.. seeya!

Blogging time

Hm.. what a boring Wednesday it is. The weather isnt helping much when I've already slept for 8 hrs. I have been really a pig recently. Sleeps are like NEVER ENOUGH for me and I dunno why. I have completed on my storybook. Nothing else to read already. The ending was EXPECTED and I was quite disappointed with the ending but still its a good book. AND FINALLY... I spotted that word "FELLATIO" in a storybook. Sigh.. I felt so embarrassing when I come across this word in the book cause of that IRRITATING CARD I made for Kooichi. I dun wish to remember that awkward scene but Shit.. its still stuck in my head. LOL.

Ok.. so I've got some really funny photos to share with everyone. Sigh.. I think I'm getting OLD already. I'm no longer addicted to snapping self shots and beautiful images. I'm like addicted to snapping candid shots and stuff.. SHAIT... whats wrong with me but well.. at least these pictures leave some wonderful memories just like BEN's 18th bday. Gee hee!

Let first start with this KOTEX look-a-like marshmellow. Gab was telling us the other time how he threw the packet when he thought was a sanitary pad. lol.. I thought it was too.. but well.. we ate the whole packet of PAD in within a min. Lol. I brought home one for remembrance and sigh.. I lost 50 bucks right after that in mahjong.

It was Mahjong week for us last week. We were like ADDICTS. It was at Eluether's BBQ at his place. He chose to bbq on the second floor and we have to play Mahjong right next to it. The whole house was smokey but we still die die must play mahjong. SO... Kervin had his mask on while playing mahjong. Really smart of him to think of that but.. yet silly for us to laugh at. I lost again that night and thats when baby warn me NOT TO PLAY MJ for the time being. Shait.. i guess so too... My patient level isnt there for the week.

Lionel Koh will be serving the nation on FRIDAY. Met up with him on MONDAY for dinner. kooichi came along and we bump onto Iz. Lionel Koh and Iz went for his haircut and we actually wanted to take over the shaver to shave Lionel koh's HEAD but well... he's too vain for us to try and the aunty was afraid that WE will spoil the shaver... GRRR!!

LK went to town and JJ needs the internet access cause his cute naughty neice went to pour orange juice onto the router. We went over to Iz's place. This photo was taken when he was shaving with a BRAUN shaver. Find it rather hilarious cause I hardly sees my fren shave using a electronic shaver apart from my dad.

Tuesday!! Baby wasnt suppose to be out that day. BUT his love for his brother didnt stop him from having his nights off. Being his one and only 24/7 dearie, I had to pick him up from his camp again and drive him back home to change. We made our plans to head to town to meet kooichi after his.. *ahem* DATE lar.
I find this erm... SPECS? rather cool. But well.. WHOEVER can see with this man. Still.. Kooichi totally suits this so much. Sigh.. Kayne west, right K? Hahahah! K.. K... k... k!!
Kooichi's Aviator. GAWD.. it looks like so RAY BAN lar.. but well... I failed having that cool image I suppose. Sigh.. and I was so dress down dat day. Oh shait... I seriously need a HAIR THERAPY. Gosh..!

Baby had his turn and I find it rather cool and cute. BUMBLEBEE.... erm.. WAIT.. doesnt he looks like.. that guy... that guy.... IN SSDC?? DRIVING TEST INSTRUCTOR!! Haha! But well.. he still has his cool in everything he wears. AND.. I'm proud of him when the waiter asked him where he got his tees from. Woo hoo... pple actually SPOT his stuff k.

Alrighty.. I'm done with all the blabberings. Sigh.. off for more aCCTs and TUITION. Grr!

A buzzy day

Woke up today feeling all FRESH guess that was because I had been sleeping like SO MANY TIMES that I hardly can remember exactly how many times I have slept at baby's place. I packed my dressing table and my dressing cabinet AGAIN. Pack all my notes and had my list of things to get b4 school starts. YES.. I'm all ready for the battle already.

Went for my tuition and time pass quite fast cause I was having a revision on FRACTION. Thank god that my student understands what message I was conveying. Called Lionel Koh to meet up for dinner cause mummy went for Mahjong session.

It was a great meetup session cause we had our chats with KOOICHI. Bump onto Iz and Junjie came along. Aw...wee!! Walk ard Junction 8 and I finally got my pink file. I'm gonna do my revision so very soon but first I have got to sort the notes and tab the LAW book.

Alright... I gtg now. Am at Iz house staring at Junjie doing the project. Grrrr...

Sex and the City

Firstly, will like to apologise to Regi, Mel and Jane for not watching SATC with the SATC members. I know I know.. I'm playing out once again. Movie with Syl, Lisa, Gab, HF, Zw, Racheal and baby was great too. The movie was a nicely 2.15 hrs long.. the guys had a hard time sitting still but the girls had no problem with all the PRADAs, Gucci and LV on the screen.

I'm totally so into the show that I cried when MR BIG left Carrie and cried again when Carrie was sad abt the failed marriage and then cried again when they got back. I laugh when Lily said SEX and samantha had sushi on her body and how Samantha tried to endure herself from SEX with another guy. The brands that appear in that show was way TOO MUCH to be named. I love that show so much.. no wonder GRACE was all for it when she first watched that show. Well.. the guys enjoyed themselves too I HOPE though they keep insisting its a GIRL kinda show. HELL NO!!! I think they should understand about the love relationship the movie is really to show. Whatever it is... GIRLS... if u havent watch that movie.. PLEASE DRAG ur bf or admirer or gfs to WATCH IT! ITs a must watch show.

Alright.. I'm back to baby's place for sleepover. Tomorrow will be a long long day again. Eluther's bbq tomorrow for the evening.. MAHJONG!!!!! PLease.. lemme win back some money this timee!! Maleh maleh hom........mmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!

Alright...gtg now.. for my beauty sleep!! Nights pple!!!

Days are not that bad after all...

YES.. I'm still quite tramautized over the results but then.. I'm so not gonna let it affect my holiday mood. I guess its time for me to learn how to pick up from failure. I know its not end of the world.. so give me some time and I will be back.

OK.. and so.. Baby rang me up like 10am in the morning yesterday to break out the news that he has to go for some courses. He was in a rush and so being the WORLD BESTEST GF.. I took the car and drove down to his camp ALL BY MYSELF. I was even NICER that I actually lend him the car to drive out and I nicely stayed at his room with all his brothers at home for a nice 6 hrs. I DIDNT EVEN STEP OUT OF THE ROOM.



And so.. when he got back, we went out for a nice dinner at BOTAK JONES. We chose to take away cause we wanted to have our own romantic time at my place only to find out that.. I FORGOTTEN TO BRING MY KEYS! Opps! So... we ended up having our meals at the poolside. It was my first time enjoying botak jones beside the pool.. pretty romantic except the fact that there's a black cat staring at us throughout our meal. No one was home and so we carried on with our PSP battle at my house VOID DECK for almost 2 hrs and thats when we saw an anGEL.. MY SIS!!!!!! Well... it was really a fantastic short night but a super LONG DAY! We were both so fatigue that we SLEPT at 11pm! Hahaha! But well.. it kinda bonded us even more this time with what actually happened today.

Yup.. see our nice PSP! The MR n MRS PSP. Hehe.. I guess I'm changing into a GAMER freak already. Wahahahhaa!

Oh.. and baby kept calling me a SILLY GF after he realise that I did not step out of his room for 6 hrs. AND he couldnt believe how I manage to hold my bladder. HAHAHA! Well.. I just dun wanna have that awkward look from his brothers lar.. WAT TO DO!!! SO.. baby.. I'm NOT UR SILLY GF ok!!!!



Oh! And I woke up early to meet up VAN VAN for our appealing session. We should be feeling sad about APPEALING for our results but we ended up laughing and having fun with writting our appeal on a bloody paper only to find out that... WE WASTED SO MUCH TIME and 9 pieces of paper cause we can actually EMAIL the coordinator. Grr! But still.. we concluded that we are both very sWAY girls. Hahaha!

Well.. we both made vows that we will work double hard for next semester and NOT PON anymore sessions. And then when I ask her if she's going for the ang mo lesson.. SHE SAID.. erm.. NO! Hahahaha! Still.. we are gonna be CLASSMATES for MAB. Haha.. please dun laugh at our STORIES ok!! We tried our best and therez a CRITERIA to appeal.. so thats why we BHB to tell them that theres an error. WE ARE FORCED TO!!!!

Ok.. Am gonna bath now to meet baby. Oooo hooo.. SEX AND THE CITY TOMORROW!!!

FAILURE is a mother to success

My eyes are swelling from all the crying and emo shit. I woke up having a seriously bad feeling and then when I get to see my hp, I saw brian msg saying that the results are release but not MAB. I wasnt really that enthu but I still went to turn on the computer and to my HORROR.. I failed that most irritating SUBJECT... LAW! My heart totally sank and I felt so HELPLESS! I message everyone and felt even worst when I realise everyone PASS. I went back to sleep with tears until an hr later... BRIAN message me agn to check my mab result. I was feeling SHITTY again.. and guess what... I FAILED MAB. I felt like a total LOSER. How could I ever fail 2 subject at a GOAL.

The feeling totally suckz. I cried like as if I failed for my O LEVELS or something. Its wierd that I'm crying for myself that I didnt work hard instead of crying because of what my parents would say. I felt so shit that I have thoughts of quitting sch. I guess this blow was simply too harsh. I kept crying and baby was all along on the phone trying his best to cheer me up and knock some sense into my head. I couldnt bring myself up to talk to any of my sim pals cause I know they did dairly well. I dun wanna see myself acting in front of them and so I log off immediately after I saw that horrendous result.

I still have to go for my tuition even though I'm so upset. My eyes were so tired from the excess tearing. Thank god that my student gave me a good news on his results. He scored all 90 plus for his subjects and his english was 98/100. Well.. gonna spent money on his present again.

Got back home and back to emo state. Chatted with Shaye and yes.. I feel much better. Messaged Angela and told her abt the horrendous result. Well.. it was my first time msging her but I was amazed by what she say.. FAILURE IS THE MOTHER OF SUCCESS. I was like WOKEN up by this sentence.

Dad got home and I told him abt the NEWS. I cried AGAIN! I hate myself sometimes lar.. JUST cannot act strong abit one lei.. tears machiam auto FLOOD ur eyes lidat one lor. I initially plan to tell him in a cutesy way but ended up he comfort me because of my tears. Gheesh. But anyway, dad was pretty OPTIMISTIC. He gave me a funny reaction that I NEVER expect he will do. He actually SWEET TALK to me and gave me a AIYO..... I WONT CANE U LAR... DUN WORRY. FAILURE is good.. at least u LEARN!! HUH!!!! Hahahaha... well.. these words are definitely very encouraging. I felt so much at ease but also.. it kinda motivates me to work 10000000 times harder. Trust me.. LAW n ACCTs.. u 2 modules better watch out.. I'm so gonna study fuck u two upside down. fucking 2 modules cause my dad to spend another 3k and also half a mth of my time. Grrr...!!!

And because it wasnt from my income, I still feel a bit pai seh on failing this two modules. Baby was surprise over my dad's reaction too. Wahahha.. thats why I always think I have a sort sort teh daddy.. very temperamental one. Can only tell him certain things on a certain time. Anyway, he's heading to TAIWAN tomorrow.. Wooo WEEeee... I'm so gonna drive his car out tomorrow to fetch baby on MY OWN. Am I scared? Erm... not really.. I'm gonna be brave.


Went over to gab house yesterday on my own for MAHJONG SAKE. hahaha! They went to pluck mango b4 i went. And when i reach.. they were playing BOXING. hahaha! I thought I was at the wrong house for a moment. Manage to win 4 bucks over all. Syl drove me home for once in a new mini cooper. He allow me to test drive his car ard gab house. Wooo.. but well.. he was scared too!






I guess after all this shit that happens... I realise something. I realise that baby is always there whenever shit happens to me. Though not physically there ALWAYS but his words always hits me hard. He is always there encouraging me and making sure I'm alright. I seriously need such people in my life. I guess I will feel even worst if not for him. His calls and numerous message are always words of care. NOW... there's a promise from me to him and that is... I PROMISE TO WORK GAZILLION TIMES more FOR NEXT SEM! Hm... fucking hate to repeat module. First time in 22 yrs.

Let's go kai kai..

Oh well.. like I said in my previous post, I woke up damn early for my dearest. Met up with him only at about 10am. Slack ard at his place while his parents bought us lunch. We were both really tired but that didn't stop us from heading out.




We wore our couple tee's the first time together after we got that from bkk last year. YEA.. my colour came out already and that's cause I wore so many times without making baby wore it and thats cause BABY thinks its queer to wear the same tee. I dun really think that its that wierd lar. As long as u have confidence in bringing the love out instead of stares.. I GUESS IT SHOULD BE ALRIGHT. And we are not wearing tees that are obiang or so whatever.. we are wearing 'THE STROKE' tee ok. But well.. he was really sweet to wear it out for me yesterday at least. AND we wore it together when we had dinner with his parents too.. and all the way until he send me home. WOO... total AWESOME.

We headed down to queensway to get my PSP and also my long waited FBT shorts. I finally found one tat really rox. Not the usual FBT.. but one that looks a little special. Bought my PSP at some shop in QUEENSWAY. I seriously think girls sucks when it comes to buying game. Thank god that I have baby with me. The man was asking me if I wanna get the us set cause China set is lousy and stuff.. I guess if without baby presence.. I WILL GET THE US SET lor. There was another girl who was getting a psp and she was con to GETTING THE US set. The us set unlike the China ones.. are definitely better but what's the need of getting a better psp when u're actually MODDING it and warranty are said to be void when u mod the set. AND.. there's only BLACK in us set whereas china set has so many colours for me to choose. And like what baby said, if its so easy to be spoilt then why are everyone BUYING the china set. HOW TRUE!!! I guess girls just dun analyse that when it comes to buying GAMES. Sigh.. reminds me of that NDS that I was cheated. Grrr...

We went down to IKEA to shop ard. They were having some renovation and everything was so cramp up. Nothing much to see except BEDS and SOFA beds cause baby is intending of getting ONE! YES.. the current one that we are sleeping is a pathetic SINGLE size bed. I swear I always get punches ard my face and body when we are both sleeping. I feel like as if the husband n wife are shopping for their flat or something cause baby was so engrossed with the measuring and stuff.. while I plonk myself onto the beds and sofa bed trying to feel its comfortness. We still havent decide any specific one yet but one thing we realise was.. THE I TOUCH we bought could just gotten us a bed or a TV or a PSP. HAHHAAH!

Took a long bus ride home and finally WE COULD HAVE OUR SLEEP when his brother knocks on our door and ask us to get our ass out for dinner with the parents. Urgz... WE didn't get a wink and we are all set to get out for dinner. We were so tired that we doze off in the car to and fro. The dinner was settled at bugis and it was uberlicious. Home at 9pm and we were checking out on other beds. He sent me off at 10.30pm and that's my sunday.

Woo.. this weekend came and gone within a flesh. I didnt even know it's actually over. I had too much fun that I just realise the results are gonna be out very soon. WHATEVER liao lar.. I know I'm so gonna fail 2 sub this sem. Fuck it.. not gonna bother abt it like seriously.

OK.. mummy and sis are addicted to the psp. WHAT ABT ME? I havent get to play it yet. Grr...!!