Dumb sleepless night

I had like only 3 hrs of sleep. Its not that I want to have sleepless night but seriously.. I dunno why I just wake up out of a sudden feeling fearful. I'm feeling slightly better right now after so much yesterday.

I just couldnt stay home and look at all the things he once given me. LOOK.. I'm not that PRO like him when it comes to forgetting the memories. I can never forget and revert back to normal self after a night. I cried when I was out with the lovelies and that was because I just hate the whole thing. BUT.. the lovelies just continued making me laugh to the fullest with gab's jokes and Syl n lisa MOVIE and the night mahjong session which I lost. Everyone asked me to moved on and forget about him but I felt like telling them everytime that its hard to do it but I know everyone will hit me with a wooden stick to tell me that I'm dumb.

I just dun understand some things over this breakup. Why when a guy wants a girl so badly.. he was allowed to use ALL THE WORDS and actions he wants but when a girl wants a guy so badly.. not even a single word can manipulate anything but when a guy wants to leave a girl, just 1 WORD can work in the breakup but vice versa for a women. Some told me that he had it all planned since mths ago then.. why.. WHY can't my actions moved u at all? Imagine.. we were still cuddling and hitting each other just less than 24 hrs ago and then when u're ALONe.. u just emo.. for that single while and CONFIRMED what u wanted without even thinking about EVERYTHING including how I felt.

There might be a possibility that I'm not the one but isnt it so ironic when u always tell me how happy you were when we are doing all the funny things just days ago b4 the breakup. The ford focus car rides, Kungfu panda movie, you falling sick and the FOOTBALL mania!!

I actually bought a card for him yesterday but I left it at the coffee house. I guess its just fated.

He did it once again

I didnt even had a wink at all last night. WHAT a drama night I had and it cause me.. to revert back to SINGLE. I find it rather a joke cause seriously.. I dun know whats up in a GUY's mentality. I have tried my best to sustain this relationship. Things I never dare to try b4.. I TRIED in this relationship and hoping that my baby will loves me more and will not have wierd thinkings.. BUT then I failed.

NOPE.. we did not have a major quarrel even a MINOR. It just happens like a snap! I dunno to hate or love him. I was so upset that i had to wake my sis up and cry cause I never thought this would happen to me today. Everyone even myself thought its alright for the both of us but.. I guess we are all wrong cause he did it again.

I'm not gonna fall into this hole ever again. I'm putting in alot of effort mending the hole we used to dig and NOW.. its repeating itself again. WHY? Why must I have such endings when I'm like the bestest gf u have? I'm always proud of u and WHY.. why must u prove to me that u're not worth to be proud. Why is it that after what has happen.. u can sleep like a dead log? Am I really that bad?

I dunno what to do right now? I seriously feel like shooting myself right in my head for answers. What's wrong with guys nowadays. I'm starting to lost the trust in love again.

Updates with PHOTOS

So here are the photos. Firstly.. its lionel koh with his Botak head. Lol.. one more bodak added to the bodak list. Hehe.. everyone looks alike now. Hope u are having a wonderful lovely time in YANKEE now. :)

And these are the food we had together with JJ on friday. The Stingray is nice yet too spicy. The fishball stall are WELL-KNOWN for its balls.. haha.. and we had that yummilicious claypot rice. Having Baby and JJ ard for dinner just reminds me of the BKK trip we went the other time. Sigh...!! Jj was like our son for that night.

OK!! I'm so gonna blog abt this photo man. THANKS to MR GABRIEL EE BING DE that my dearest baby is like so STUCK and GLUED to this game. PURSUIT FORCE!! Its all abt police chasing after thief or something lidat. Grr... baby is like so HAPPY with the game that he plays it in the CAR, on the dining table, while walking and during his shitting process. AND YES.. I was neglected most of the time... its great if I'm playing mj but when I'm not.. it just suck! Hahhaa... I'm so gonna kick gabby's ass for this great recommendation. Baby was telling me that he's so gonna thank gab for that wonderful recommendation and I WAS like.. SO IT was HIS IDEA LAR... grrr...(*punch the wall)!

Its monday and I'm like freaking bored!! Yawn... viwawa!!!

Happy.WeekEnD

I'm seriously having the most ultimate weekend I ever had. Well well.. looks like every weekend seems lovely except those without baby with me. WHATEVER.. So.. baby book out on Thursday evening. I rush like mad since I had to head to sch on thursday for the enrolment thingy.

I was seriously FAMISHED when I met baby. TO make things worst we made 2 trips to and fro AMK central cause we forgotten to bring the non camera phone for Lionel Koh who is serving the nation on FRIDAY. We went to J8 to do last minute shopping for LIONEL KOH.. and FINALLY.. after so long.. I can have my DINNER! It was settled at TPY lor 8. The food was fine but the company we had was helluva fun.

Drinking is a must have for the boy here. We made a trip to boat Quey but realise it was WILD HOGS that lionel koh wants to go. Well well.. WILD HOGS.. was seriously an EYE OPENER for me. Its a Phillipine kinda pub.. but well.. NOT REALLY THAT CLEAN. I was the only DECENT girl over there I suppose. Though baby felt a little uneasy with my presence but seriously.. I'm ALRIGHT! It was rather hilarious to see how hum sup man can get and hwo DARING and poor thing some of the ladies there were. There was this ang mo that just grope the ladies breast under her blouse and he didnt even just stop there.. he continue himself by putting his hands under her skirt. I was freaking FREAKED OUT! Drank quite abit over there and then accompanied Jun Jie for some karaoka over to the other side of the alley. Left the guys for their own drinking session while I had fun with jj with songs and Tiger. Thank god that the guys I know wasnt hum sup like that ang mo. ITS really ULTIMATE.

We got home at 4 plus and I woke up at 6 to find myself feeling abit uneasy. I guess its the mixture of alcohol. My stomach felt bloated and I was having a headache. I spent my night playing diner dash on the PSP. Slept for only 3 hrs for the whole night I guess. Despite being so tired, we still made our trip down to army market to get baby's stuff done and then off to Suntec for IT show. I was really so tired that I slept ASAP after boarding the bus. Dinner was settled with Jun Jie and baby at TPY again.. but this time was at another side of TPY. Nice nice. Met up with Kervin and Gab for mahjong and we had loadza fun. Laugh until I roll on the floor and kept banging my fist on the floor. Everyone had their fun I guess.

Went over to Andre place for soccer. I was really too tired that I K.Oed after a few mins. 4-1 was the score for netherlands and france. It was really one helluva fun night. Gtg rest.. seeya!

Blogging time

Hm.. what a boring Wednesday it is. The weather isnt helping much when I've already slept for 8 hrs. I have been really a pig recently. Sleeps are like NEVER ENOUGH for me and I dunno why. I have completed on my storybook. Nothing else to read already. The ending was EXPECTED and I was quite disappointed with the ending but still its a good book. AND FINALLY... I spotted that word "FELLATIO" in a storybook. Sigh.. I felt so embarrassing when I come across this word in the book cause of that IRRITATING CARD I made for Kooichi. I dun wish to remember that awkward scene but Shit.. its still stuck in my head. LOL.

Ok.. so I've got some really funny photos to share with everyone. Sigh.. I think I'm getting OLD already. I'm no longer addicted to snapping self shots and beautiful images. I'm like addicted to snapping candid shots and stuff.. SHAIT... whats wrong with me but well.. at least these pictures leave some wonderful memories just like BEN's 18th bday. Gee hee!

Let first start with this KOTEX look-a-like marshmellow. Gab was telling us the other time how he threw the packet when he thought was a sanitary pad. lol.. I thought it was too.. but well.. we ate the whole packet of PAD in within a min. Lol. I brought home one for remembrance and sigh.. I lost 50 bucks right after that in mahjong.

It was Mahjong week for us last week. We were like ADDICTS. It was at Eluether's BBQ at his place. He chose to bbq on the second floor and we have to play Mahjong right next to it. The whole house was smokey but we still die die must play mahjong. SO... Kervin had his mask on while playing mahjong. Really smart of him to think of that but.. yet silly for us to laugh at. I lost again that night and thats when baby warn me NOT TO PLAY MJ for the time being. Shait.. i guess so too... My patient level isnt there for the week.

Lionel Koh will be serving the nation on FRIDAY. Met up with him on MONDAY for dinner. kooichi came along and we bump onto Iz. Lionel Koh and Iz went for his haircut and we actually wanted to take over the shaver to shave Lionel koh's HEAD but well... he's too vain for us to try and the aunty was afraid that WE will spoil the shaver... GRRR!!

LK went to town and JJ needs the internet access cause his cute naughty neice went to pour orange juice onto the router. We went over to Iz's place. This photo was taken when he was shaving with a BRAUN shaver. Find it rather hilarious cause I hardly sees my fren shave using a electronic shaver apart from my dad.

Tuesday!! Baby wasnt suppose to be out that day. BUT his love for his brother didnt stop him from having his nights off. Being his one and only 24/7 dearie, I had to pick him up from his camp again and drive him back home to change. We made our plans to head to town to meet kooichi after his.. *ahem* DATE lar.
I find this erm... SPECS? rather cool. But well.. WHOEVER can see with this man. Still.. Kooichi totally suits this so much. Sigh.. Kayne west, right K? Hahahah! K.. K... k... k!!
Kooichi's Aviator. GAWD.. it looks like so RAY BAN lar.. but well... I failed having that cool image I suppose. Sigh.. and I was so dress down dat day. Oh shait... I seriously need a HAIR THERAPY. Gosh..!

Baby had his turn and I find it rather cool and cute. BUMBLEBEE.... erm.. WAIT.. doesnt he looks like.. that guy... that guy.... IN SSDC?? DRIVING TEST INSTRUCTOR!! Haha! But well.. he still has his cool in everything he wears. AND.. I'm proud of him when the waiter asked him where he got his tees from. Woo hoo... pple actually SPOT his stuff k.

Alrighty.. I'm done with all the blabberings. Sigh.. off for more aCCTs and TUITION. Grr!

A buzzy day

Woke up today feeling all FRESH guess that was because I had been sleeping like SO MANY TIMES that I hardly can remember exactly how many times I have slept at baby's place. I packed my dressing table and my dressing cabinet AGAIN. Pack all my notes and had my list of things to get b4 school starts. YES.. I'm all ready for the battle already.

Went for my tuition and time pass quite fast cause I was having a revision on FRACTION. Thank god that my student understands what message I was conveying. Called Lionel Koh to meet up for dinner cause mummy went for Mahjong session.

It was a great meetup session cause we had our chats with KOOICHI. Bump onto Iz and Junjie came along. Aw...wee!! Walk ard Junction 8 and I finally got my pink file. I'm gonna do my revision so very soon but first I have got to sort the notes and tab the LAW book.

Alright... I gtg now. Am at Iz house staring at Junjie doing the project. Grrrr...

Sex and the City

Firstly, will like to apologise to Regi, Mel and Jane for not watching SATC with the SATC members. I know I know.. I'm playing out once again. Movie with Syl, Lisa, Gab, HF, Zw, Racheal and baby was great too. The movie was a nicely 2.15 hrs long.. the guys had a hard time sitting still but the girls had no problem with all the PRADAs, Gucci and LV on the screen.

I'm totally so into the show that I cried when MR BIG left Carrie and cried again when Carrie was sad abt the failed marriage and then cried again when they got back. I laugh when Lily said SEX and samantha had sushi on her body and how Samantha tried to endure herself from SEX with another guy. The brands that appear in that show was way TOO MUCH to be named. I love that show so much.. no wonder GRACE was all for it when she first watched that show. Well.. the guys enjoyed themselves too I HOPE though they keep insisting its a GIRL kinda show. HELL NO!!! I think they should understand about the love relationship the movie is really to show. Whatever it is... GIRLS... if u havent watch that movie.. PLEASE DRAG ur bf or admirer or gfs to WATCH IT! ITs a must watch show.

Alright.. I'm back to baby's place for sleepover. Tomorrow will be a long long day again. Eluther's bbq tomorrow for the evening.. MAHJONG!!!!! PLease.. lemme win back some money this timee!! Maleh maleh hom........mmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!

Alright...gtg now.. for my beauty sleep!! Nights pple!!!